Thursday, April 06, 2006
Still Nervous
I am not sure that I am ready for my confession this evening.  Part of me thinks I should have scheduled a specific private time with the priest.  But then again, I really just want to get it over with.  I know that it will be wonderful once it's all done... it's just getting to that point.  I spent about an hour in prayer last night asking God to let me know all the things that I need to confess.  Somehow I still feel that I haven't covered everything.  I also know the things I will be telling the priest is nothing he hasn't heard before.  It's just one of those things that I can certainly know that I will feel better afterwards, and know that I am not be judged by the priest, and know that it probably not going to be as bad as it seems, but it doesn't really make it easier.  I am worried that my confession won't be complete.  I am worried that I will take too much time.  I am worried thatI am not feeling repentent enough.  I do feel bad about my sins, and I know that they have separated me from God, and I am earnestly making an attempt to not sin any more, but somehow I feel it's still not enough.  I can say, however, that since I have been going to mass, the urge to sin has greatly decreased.  Lately, I am mostly guilty of venial sins.  I just pray that things go well tonight.  I pray that it will not be as bad as I expect it to be.  I pray that I stop fretting over it so much.  And I pray that God gives me the courage, wisdom and the words to make a truly complete confession.
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